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Despite all the things that happened
I realize the many people who support me
their little actions and encouragements really make me know how blessed I am
those that I have never met and those i know too well
thanks.

</div></div>Ave Maria - Beyoncé</div>

( Let's not... )

i heard this was composed or arranged by Hwan Hee. makes me appreciate him=)
I have also officially fell in love with Yesung's voice, no matter how weird and creepy he is I absolutely love his voice<3
has a little bit of Junsu technique and Yoochun technique.. =D

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So Friday at 5 PM, I arrive at the LAX. Check-in went fine. Through the metal detector, fine. To the waiting section, fine. Ready to board, not fine. Turns out we didn't have seats.FML and so the plane left without us. -____-
Then the Delta person tried to find us a ride to leave that night and 3 hours passed and NOTHING!! But it turned out to be ok because the compensated us with cash, hotel, and meal vouchers and nonstop trips. So we were on the plane for the next morning at 7:15. So we went to Westin Hotel next to LAX which was pretty nice. They have a nice fitness room with a steam room!!:D

The next morning I woke up at 5AM to get ont he shuttle to LAX and when we got there we bought a whole bunch of food with the meal vouchers so we don't waste the money.haha And then we went to the waiting area and found out the plane was delayed until 8:55AM -_____-
We waited until then and then went on the plane. Well, guess what, Bob visited the day before and so I ate some tylenol before I went on the plane. On the plane, I watched 3 episodes of House, hahaha, and then some of Yes, Man. Finally abotu 40minutes before we were to land, I got Super Cramps. Turbulence was horrible. So I got sick. FML

Got to Newark finally. Still felt kind of sick and fatigued. Went on the car and fell asleep, when I woke up we were next to Hudson River looking at New York. My beautiful New York City. Then we went to a Japanese market. Mitsuwa? Inside was so pretty!!<3 yup that was all basically. So far the trip would be terrible except that now I'm here, I could care less what happened.

Uh..you know it's kinda hard to say no to your dream?

I want to cry right now but my eyes will puff up like fucking puffy fish.
FML.

Dear friends,





( ... )

Thank you vania for telling me this when I got NYU.
and now I think of it again as I read my acceptance into Boston College and rejection from Berkeley.
Things DO happen for a reason.
Hopefully good days will continue because rejections really don't feel great.

New artist(s) list coming out tonight 9PM!!!! hope it's good!


just checked!!!
YES YES YES!!!!
SS501 IS COMING TO HB 2009!!!! ALL 5 OF THEM!!
HYUNJOONG!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHH!!!!<3333333333333

I filled up my water bottle

left it on my desk for 24 hours

I see some air/water bubbles

Open the bottle and hear fizzing

drinking the water and still hear fizzing

THIS IS TYPICAL DRINKING WATER



IT'S FIZZING



SHOULD I BE WORRIED??!!

I am finally able to go see that city i want to live in:
New York.
the city of yellow cabs and billions of people

just two more weeks and I am there
just two more weeks...
so happy right now!:)

Today is March 17, 2009
St. Patrick's day and I forgot to wear green, but only got pinched twice!:)

I finally am assured about NYU
and now I am ecstatic!!
Saturday, found out about UCSD but on Monday, after I got over it
I found out I got into NYU, my #1 school!!:D
I am one happy person!!

the weird thing is, I dreamt about the exact thing few weeks ago
I dreamt that I got into NYU because of an invitation!
weird~
the only difference was that I was the one opening it and I was at home
and, then, i thought i was for sure rejected.
thank goodness~~

taking vania's quote "things happen for a reason".
SO COMPLETELY TRUE!!:D

tomorrow is choir festival!! first solo ever, i hope i dont lose my voice between now and tomorrow and dont crack and dont forget to come in and...
wish me luck people!!:)

i think it hit me ten minutes after i found out
and today i still checked but what i saw was what i saw.
reality check. i should have worked harder and not slacked off too much
i think this kind of predicts where i will be
but i hope miracles occur
i dont care, i just want to go to college.

yesterday was fun fun fun except that
especially the early morning girl talks
and then waking up, eating brunch, huddling under blankets watching a sad movie
now i am back home
and my house smells funny, not good funny
grrrr..

tomorrow school!!no~~~~
come spring break !!!vacation?relax??
I want to just get applications over with.aish stupid UCs giving them so slow and making people so angry and anxious..grrrr..>.<

the point it I am tired..haha

well remember i had this dream about the senior trip

well...i was looking through some 꽃보다 남자spoiler pictures and guess what
well the dream about the windows that ran from the ceiling to the floor
i have found them:



somehow my dream looked liked the pictures!! with the big blue ocean in front!!
if that's not weird then tell me what is.lol

new talent: able to predict the future...in dramas:D

as of right now
sadies is going on
and it's my senior year
i'm home, lame huh?

well ...oh well
i will regret but who cares
although i wish i had asked someone
ha ha

sleepover tomorrow!
super excited
and then sauna? maybe yahoo!!!



solo
hoping
maybe
possibly
others
good
me
okay
hope
know
now!

I am calm
I am content
I am at peace

but the world around me is not

People around me feel helpless
and so I feel helpless
for I can't seem to see the trouble they're in

All I can do is give support and love
because I love them very much.

Today I laid in my grandma's lap.
I was scared but warm at the same time.

Somehow, I feel scared now,
scared to grow up
scared to stand up
scared to look up and see what i want not there.
when i grow up those i love will be gone
and i am scared.
I'd love to grow up faster but not now, not when I realize that they might be there.

I realized the way i live is to hurt those i love the most so i don't feel the hurt.
but i want to love them and show them that love
but it's too hard
but i can't
but i'm afraid
but there are too many buts

I am afraid that one day I will have to face the day without them
I don't want to face the day that they leave
that they are gone forever and will never come back
i want to take them out
treat them to a nice dinner
take them to interesting places
All I want to do is love them more than ever
squeeze them in big bear hugs
smother their cheeks with kisses
hold their soft weathered hands
and love them with all i have

I can feel the time get shorter and I am scared
People say you can almost predict a death, a bad omen
so why do i feel this way in such a warm lap?

And all this lying in my grandma's lap.

Grandma I love you. Please don't suddenly leave. I will miss you too much.

so..........
senior year.........

I got my license, finally!!!<3
but then i look ugly and weird and just not good at all:(

anyways i had two weird dreams relating to 꽃보다 남자
I will type them out so I don't forget..hahaha

#1

This took place during a senior trip with everyone.
When the dream started friends and I were talking and then other people came into the room. The room was like a room where performers gather before performances to warm and stuff. It was sort of like the ball room in 꽃보다 남자 when Jihoo and Jandi danced except here, the floor was strewn with duffel bags and outfits/costumes. So, people were coming so I had to change for this party thing and while I was changing, people were coming in and so I had to cover myself and dress quickly.(weird)
Next, it jumped to where I was in this office looking room and I was like a CEO type person except this was still during the senior trip and so I guess I was like the organizer/planner.Anyways, I was looking out the glass windows at everyone and just watching over them at what they were doing. Then I open the door, and walk out into a indoor patio place. The setting is hard to describe. First, it's like an indoor patio and it has three levels. From the doorway this is what I see: I am at the most top level and to the left is a walkway that runs along the side of the bedrooms. In front was a short wooden staircase that leed to the second level where tea party-like tables were set up, with umbrellas and everything.(this was indoor and obviously there is no sun, so the umbrella doesn't make sense, but that's beside the point). The tables were like the ones in front of starbucks. Then, if you walk a little to the right and look forward there is another pathway/walkway that goes to these huge windows that run run from the ceiling to the first level. Along that pathways were plants, so sort of like in a plant museum(what's the word?) and if you keep walking along that and then turn left at the end, you reach the walkway that runs along the windows. So basically there is this wooden walkway that runs along the inside of the hotel on the third level. When you reach the huge windows and look out, you sea the great, big, beautiful blue ocean. It's like the water that's clearish aqua blue/green that you see in pictures of the Caribbean beaches.
Back to the stairs in front of my door. So, on the second level there are Starbuck-like tables and when you take stairs down to the first level, there are also tables set up. These tables are square and seats up to four, kind of like those in 꽃보다 남자 when they went on that one vacation in Jeju island? There I see some people eating breakfast and waiters are serving nice breakfasts with eggs and toasts. It's not like a buffet breakfast at most hotels but one where you order what you want, they prepare it for you and waiters serve you breakfast.
So, I am standing outside of my door and I decided to walk down to the second level so I do. There I look down at the people laughing and enjoying conversations while waiters serve their breakfasts on the first floor. I see the windows and decide I want to go to the windows and look out. I have to walk back up to the third level though and right when I was walking up, I wake up.
Point is, that I don't get to see my beautiful ocean and the feeling of being on that trip was just so great that I didn't want to wake up.:(
The place was sort of like a hotel and a cruise ship. Weird.

#2

I am at a restaurant with some friends and the restaurant was kind of like a cafe you would find in Disneyland or some amusement park. I look out the window and I see Hyunjoong. The restaurant has windows all around and he was on opposite side of where the door was and walking around. I was thinking "OMG!good thing I have my camera" I said something like, hey it's Hyunjoong. And he continues to walk around closer and closer to the door/entrance and I tried to get my camera out to take a picture of him and when I finally did he was at the door and so walked quickly to the door and stood on the inside of the door. It was a double door so I stood in front of the left one on the inside and he stood in front of the right one on the outside. And guess who I see(totally random) Eugene Chao. He stadning next to Hyunjoong and in front my door while Hyunjoong looks in. I guess Eugene was going to open the door for Hyunjoong but I was standing there and thus blocked it. Hyunjoong looked in but didn't even see me and he decided he didn't want to go in and they left.
So I was standing at the door with my camera in my hand and I didn't even take a picture of him. As I was about to walk out, I see all these fan girls crowd around him and I think "great. I didn't even get a picture of him":(

Basically this entry has no point whatsoever.LOL

I wish I could stop slacking off so much = =
two night of math hw!!>.<
help!!

but on the brighter side...

the boys from BOF are so cute and hot and sexy and charming and charismatic and *sigh*....

I turn into a pig everytime I go eat korean tofu
and I don't know why but i don't like it= =